My world has crumbled. Its raining in my heart now..

I dont wanna fall in love any more... Its too hurting..

This time I'm leaving for Bali with a heavy heart. I miss you badly but you are so cold to me. Perhaps leaving quietly will be a good
Option coz I already don't know how to handle you already..

Down

I have not been blogging for years. Well perhaps a timely update now. Life is like a heap of shit. I have not been doing well, in work, love and life. There is not much progression.

Work... After leaving Unicast and joined KOI, I still feel Unicast is much closer to my heart. K has spoken to me and wish that I return back, with everything still the same. Appreciate it but I'm still hoping for some progression in life..

Love.... I guess I failed miserably in this area.. Up till now, I guess I am not capable of retaining the heart of the guy whom I like.. I been thru so many failed relationships le... I am so tired right now. Even when I feel I found someone I like, things doesnt not seem to work to what I want. Am I expecting too much from him? With him giving me cold shoulders right now, suddenly I felt I have lost a pillar, overnight and it seems my world have crumbled.. I feel so sad, but he tells me to leave him alone, tell me, what can I do now? I am sleepless every night coz of him, I guess I am really into him.. I may appear to be very strong on the exterior but who actually knows how I am feeling inside.. Maybe I should really leave him alone.. I am so sad.. To have lost my pillar.....

I guess my life is a bull's life. Even when I am not working, I wake up like 8am latest. I was sleepless again last night. Sigh, and I know the reason. Maybe should put the unhappy things out of life for awhile... Enjoy the last few days of 2011 and embrace myself for 2012.

Hope that 2012 will be a better year for me. In my work life, and relationship..

Pre exams stress

Exams are just 2weeks away and I am beginning to feel the stress... I am trying to pump and boost up immune, so that I dont fall sick at this critical moment. However, headaches still haunt me and that's not a very good sign.

Found some meaningful words to share:

1. You never really stop loving someone. You just learn to try to live without them.

2. Love is a precious gift that people try to hold onto until the end of time, even when there is nothing left to hold.

3. I'm scared to lose you, and I don't even have you.

4. When I miss you, I don't have to go far ... I just have to look inside my heart
because that's where I'll find you.